mrs_snowman

dadada

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 01:09:06 GMT

I went to Fugakyu today with Mom and Lucas~ had Jalepeno sushi miso shiru rice and tempura red bean icecream yay. There's not much else to tell. Eating yummy pasta, still want new headphones, but getting them sometime soon for sure. Im not mad at stefi btw so don't tell her I'm mad. >>

ςυΓρΓΙΖε

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 23:09:43 GMT

It's been a while you guys.
Right now I'm on Azeurus getting more music for my ipod. Of course, on Azeurus, there's mostly dance remixes, homemade techno, and rap. I'm not complaining though.. I have a thing for techno.
Classical music's also been good to me lately, and rap too. Before you start hating on rap, FU it's perfectly good music.

Anywho sorry if I've been unreachable for the past week after school and everything.
(this is basically to my Ex-Fiance :/) we should hang out soon. =_=
We could go to the lucky wah or infusions. I think Infusions would be the better choice because it would be more of an adventure somehow. But it's been really
really
cold
lately

so maybe Wah is better. Plus we could get a bigger meal for cheaper.

Nanowrimo is fast approaching. :3
I'm looking for some cool german names~
It struck me that everyone should have a German name for some reason, because they resound deeper. Idk I like them a lot. When I was writing a short story about a holocaust officer person (I now forget the terms), the main character was named Dominik. I like that name so much. =_= so it's now the name of my main character. No last name yet.

Wanted: New Headphones-----
Skullcandy Gi- Camo pref. getting some hopefully this week.
<3

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 13:32:08 GMT

Okay chouuu..
I'm at the school right now. Random to post at this moment because idk I haven't posted in a while. Anyways, I'm so excited for tomorrow. I get to go on a family trip with Nico and Olive~
I miss them so much..

Olive called me and said that her family would like to invite me to the beach (in the cape) with them. Me: *dancing around the room literally*.

I should cook something and bring it~
I owe it to them to do a nice thing, because I basically ditched them after meeting you guys. I feel so fucking bad about it too...

Okay whatever time to write some random short story.

One I've got nothing. Absolutely nothing.
One day some random person decided that she was morbidly obese so she went to get Lyposuction. But she didn't fit on the surgery table. HAR HAR HAR because she was really really... okay nvm. I should burn in hell. xD

So I won't see you guys in a while, because I'll be sleeping over Nico and Olive's house on Friday and then going to the cape on Saturday and staying there to cook out on the beach and stuff.. but whenever I go with them to the cape I come back with a HUGE SUNBURN. I tan for a while... then burn... then my skin starts smelling real nice and crispycrispy. haha whatever I'll see you guys in a bit...

*WANTS RBMT REAL BADLY*

yea

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 02:39:31 GMT

mrs_snowman Highway

Dumpsville	4
Confusion Lane	15
Loony-Bin Lane	65
Lake Love	107
Contentment Meadows	549
Please Drive Carefully

Where are you on the highway of life?

From Go-Quiz.com

too lazy to do da other 1. Soyeon. Read my Hello Kitty story it mad cool.

SUMMAH

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 00:36:47 GMT

So it's settled my friends. Summer school Freshman Health and Fitness starts this Monday at Eight-thirty AM. Oh joy. My sleeping schedule is so fucking messed up though. Get this:

I had insomnia last night and then at five in the morning I took a walk in Coolige Corner. At five AM it's so much different! There were literally like three people walking around. All the cars were Taxis and Cop Cars, and those were infrequent. Basically there was nobody there, and it was very eerie.

Have fun whatever you're doing people! I need to exercise so I'll sleep better tonight and not find myself walking around Rozzie at 3 in the morning or something. ( DDR )

JIIH!!

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 04:13:09 GMT

So I've finally decided that there's nothing wrong with the world. :3 I finally found out that Iっma be in Japanese II H with all my buddies! I'm so thrilled.:)

So early in the day I was talking to my mom about how irresponsible Alexandria is for not getting back to me on the matter. Then my dad calls around ten minutes later and says that she called him. He tell my mom that I was absent from H&F too many times so I have to take it again. ^^;; hehe bad Hannah! I had it for Z block k? Not a meowrning person. >_<. However, I found it interesting that she finally responds, especially since she's in a conference in New York. My mom leaves a message on her cell for her to call back, and while we're at savers she calls my mom and explains a few things. She says that it's my mom's decision whether I can take honors or not.

I was appalled when my mom said "I'll see your grades and then make the decision," so I argued a little. I don't argue very often, so it was more convincing. Also, I feel very strongly about the matter so she finally gave in. YAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Anywho, today was really fun. :)

I miss my long LJ posts, so ?enjoy?

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 06:52:29 GMT

I haven't updated in a while, I know. It just feels as if the posts on livejournal don't make it to the public no eyes. Anyways, kiddies, today I would like to say that my mom is really annoying.

Today I was feeling really strange, and having one of those times when you get random cravings. It's not like the ones you get when you have PMS. It's like the body trying to give itself the vitamins and minerals and other such things that it needs to survive. Like if you're lacking fiber you'll suddenly want apples a whole lot. That happens to you guys too, right?

So I get up in the afternoon (I woke up at three, lol) and scarf down a banana. And later in the day, I kept saying to myself "you have to eat something," but instead I'd take out grapefruit juice and be obsessed with drinking it. There's no explanation really.. at eight I did make myself a sandwich out of concern lol. So I suppose I needed more fruit, or more natural sugar, or more acid. I have no idea.

I tell my mom this later:
Me: It's so strange.. all I ate today was fruit.
Mom: So it was on purpose?
Me: No! Why would-
Mom: not paying attention and walking away

Leter on I was wearing this denim skirt that is mad big on me that keeps falling down.
Me: Dammit, why is this big on me?? I got it like two years ago..
Mom: OH. SO you're paying attention to your weight HUH?
Me: No I was just-
Mom: Because you're around that age..
Me: I'm just commenting on-
Mom: Oh look olives... *completely not paying attention*
Me: do----------n 0_0;;;;

I don't know what's wrong with her! She keeps thinking I have an eating disorder or something! And if you guys know me at all, my favorite thing in the world is food. So wtf??

On a different tone, we have got to organize a camping trip of some sort. Then we can sit by a fire and catch fireflies and fire fireworks into the firey sunset.. hahaa. I have no idea how I said fire so many times in one sentence, I really don't. But it might inspire some writing or something, who knows? Sore ni.. I rlly need to get out of the house.

omfg *shoots self in the head* I keep fucking saying stuff in Japanese because it's an easier sentence structure than English. See? I just said 'sore ni'. I think I've been watching too much Japanese shit. >> I'm starting to call my cats 'neesan'. lmao someone please kill me swiftly.

Okey. As a treat because I haven't posted in around a billionkajillion years, I'll write a story about nothing! Also known as a drabble.

Hello kitty wipes her forehead dry with a washcloth and stares into the bathroom mirror. She tried to look into her own eyes, but she was too ashamed to do so, and startes at the door instead. The closet door stands there unmoving as she looks at it's reflection; kitty almost wishes it would. She hopes that in the reflection, she sees a figure emerge and destroy her, make her repent for her sins

The thought of the girl she had fallen in love with, the one whom she had muted... It the fur on Kitty's back stands up. This girl had betrayed her, had cheated on her, and lied. There was a reason to mute her, to make her bleed; to kill her. There were these reasons, so why then is Kitty Ashamed?

Kitty is not ashamed because she took another life, because she's used to it by now. Kitty is not ashamed because of the victim's family, so close. Kitty is ashamed because the one thing she had is now tarnished. She has destroyed any love that could every be for her, and is now feeling sad and regretful when it is her own fault. These feeling of loss are what makes her unable to forgive herself.

Kitty opens the bathroom door and exists Chococat's house. She looks up at the bathroom window, but the shades are down and she can't into it. "It sure is cold," she says, straightening her bow and fur coat. The white cat pads down the sidewalk with her head up, looking at the sky she can't see.

Tears run down to her mouth and she wipes them away, slightly annoyed. The wind is mussing up her hair again. As she's distracted, she notices someone is present beside her. Kitty recognizes the scent to be that of Charmy Kitty, who greets her with a blunt 'why did you do it?'

Kitty sniffs and keeps walking. "she stole my eggo waffles." Slowly, the scent of Charmy fades into the smells of nighttime. Kitty doesn't stop until she reaches home.

Hahaha... why did I write this? NO, the question is 'why didn't someone write this sooner?'

Well, goodnight y'all, I'll start to post regularly again and maybe throw in some more stories.
Have a fun life. <33
Yeah by the way Jake is going to kill me soon so you'd better hang out with me while there is still time. C'ya later (hopefully).

GABYGABYGABY and employment

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 01:55:53 GMT

GABY GABY GAAAABY!! Please bring my backpack to school..
I will be dead without it.

Alright so it was so much fun out in the woods even
if
the splendor of it
wasn't fully appreciated by
Jesuana+Jamie *scoff*

I want to live at that motherfucking house so badly.

Being there made me think of the future of me and everyone else. I hope we all get big jobs that we love and bring in lots of money. That way it'd be nice to have great tea parties all day.

But I don't care about the money so much because I want to travel. If I could have a job that payed me to do expeditions or something I would totally take it. I hope that I meet someone who shares that dream.

Also that everyone else finds someone like that.
It'd be cool to accomplish something together huh? Kinda like a soulmate.

Sun, 27 May 2007 14:13:34 GMT

http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.fugitivetoys.com/files/products/thumbs/thumb_trexi-plus-series-01-black-pink.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.fugitivetoys.com/shop/price/0-10/4/&h=145&w=130&sz=6&hl=en&start=1&um=1&tbnid=MvYxMLKcVQ_nVM:&tbnh=95&tbnw=85&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dacid%2Bsweeties%26svnum%3D10%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den

*DIES*

This is just way too strange! I need this fucking thing.
DAMN. :O

K UM SOOOOOO.

damn the link is awful!! It does not load...
click on the picture and then search for "mushroom" in japanese vinyl

STRANGGE

Thu, 24 May 2007 00:09:40 GMT

LMAO. THIS PIC IS FOR SHANTI!!

I got bored so I kept making half-shirtless pics for Shanti..

Anyway, I feel very strange.

VERY strange.

Unloved sort of.

And like... if I didn't talk to anyone they would never talk to me.

And it's not really bad at all... it's just a little strange...

Because people now are always expecting me to entertain them or something. Like wtf? It's like if I don't talk people just ignore me and wait for me to speak to them

Thus begin my emo moment... lol...
They're not emo moments really acually.

It's just me trying not to talk.

Alright so idk what's happening. I'm sort of lurking in the shadows...
Hehehe... I will drag you in. WTF IS MY ISSUES? I have no idea what this post is even about and yet I can't stop myself from writing.

Ooh.

I like to write.

You know what else?

Food.
I LOVE FOOD.
I should make myself some.

I also want to see baby animals alright?

survey!! I like it

Sat, 19 May 2007 05:17:03 GMT

1. [wallet] I don't have one

2. [hairbrush] It is purple and broken

3. [toothbrush] Electrical and the other one is green

4. [jewelry worn daily] Mostly my purple bracelet

5. [pillow cover] Ugly and striped

6. [blanket] Lion king

7. [coffee cup] I don't drink coffee, I drink tea or chai or hot chocolate. I don't have a special cup except one that has santa on it and says 'milk for santa'

8. [sunglasses] I don't like sunglasses right now

9. [underwear] Right now it is blue and light blue and spotted with those

10. [cologne / perfume] Cotton candy

11. [CD in stereo right now] ipod- close yet far by CKY

12. [tattoos] I want some maybe later

13. [piercings] My ears are peirced. I want more peircings though

14. [what you are wearing now] Yellow tank top, brown longsleeve thingy, jeans

15. [in my mouth] Some guy I don't know too well. Jk... nothing.

16. [in my head] I want to talk to someone important to me but they are asleep

17. [wishing] I could talk to someone I don't know well but who is nice

18. [after this] Sleep maybe or take shower

19. [fetishes] Bondage, S&M... what? Don't give me that look...

20. [if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what] :( I don't like to kill people. I guess, though, it would have to be... no i don't want to kill anyone

21. [person you wish you could see right now] Judy Giovangelo

22. [is next to you] Nobody :(

23. [some of your favorite movies] Nobody knows, shawshank redemption, terminator, the sound of music.. lots more also

24. [something you're looking forward to] Boba tea

25. [the last thing you ate] blackberries

26. [something that you are deathly afraid of] Everyone suddenly becoming sullen and mean so there is nobody to share happy moments with. Also zombies and a ghost

27. [do you like candles] Especially the good-smelling ones like blueberry

28. [do you like incense] Rose-flavor incense is good

29. [do you like the taste of blood] No. It's like copper.

30. [do you believe in love] yes. we all have to you know?

31. [do you believe in soul mates] yes

32. [do you believe in love at first sight] not at all

33. [can you eat with chopsticks] Yes. I like to pick up random stuff with chopsticks and see if I can.

34. [what are some of your favorite candies] Assorted chocolate like the caramel kind, starburst, sour candy in general

35. [what's something that you wish people would understand] Reality is what you make it

first things first [my name is]: My name is Hannah

[in the morning i am]: moar sleep please.

[all i need is]: myelf in face of an adventure

[love is]: like a sweet-smelly candle like blueberries. It's good to smell, but once you light it on fire and try to take it's warmth in, it starts to melt away. I'm bad at metaphors...

[i'm afraid of]: forever aloneness, ordering food, zombies and ghosts even if they are irrational fears.

favourites

[colour]: I like red colors. Kind of firebrick red. Also, lavendar and indigo. Hm.. I like white because it's pure and has all colors mixed together.

[number]: 6, 12, 44

[subject]: Japanese, History

[clothing brand]: I don't care much

[shoe brand]: Sneakers are nice.

[sport to play]: ultimate frizbee and tenniss and rockclimbing and whitewater rafting

[drink]: Milk, milk tea, mango bubble tea and ramune. Also, chai.

[animal]: Cats are nice, and also foxes and tanuki and bunnies

[holiday]: Christmas

[favourite line from a movie]: "My arm... it's HEALED! Ahh! No it's not."

[band/singer] I like orange range because they sing fast. dododododododododo! Like that. I also like Pink. She is nice. And BOC and others as well. A lot of others. I'm just not thinking right now.

have you ever.. [pictured your crush naked]: >< Ah. No. I dunno have a crush now. :0

[actually seen your crush naked]: No.

[had sex]: I's not!

[made love]: No I's also not.

[been in love]: No

[cried when someone died]: I cried before they died. Then after I couldn't cry anymore because everyone else was... and I didn't want to add to their crying.

[lied]: No. Okay.. that is a lie as well.

who.. [makes you laugh the most]: My brother. :)

[makes you smile]: I fake smile a lot. Everyone does I think? I don't know if it's legitimate then... I guess real smiles would be myself. hehe.

[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: People that I'm shy of.

[has a crush on you]: I don't know who. :D

[easiest to talk to]: Um... I don't know actually

[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to i.m. you?]: I don't IM much anymore. I will if people want me to real badly.

[save aol/aim conversations]: If they're random enough

[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: Only if I could be a gay guy. :o lol

[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Yes =/

have you ever.. [fallen for your best friend]: Yesh (he is a guy. Not my best friend anymore though and don't like him anymore either)

[been rejected]: Noooo!!

[rejected someone]: Yes =/

[used someone]: Unfortunately I do use people. Not in any big way though.

[been cheated on]: No!

[done something you regret]: I used to but now I don't regret those things anymore

who was the last person [you talked to on the phone]: Mom

[hugged]: Jesuana

[you instant messaged]: Liyang

[you laughed with]: Brother

do you / are you

[smoke cigarettes]: No eww. My family keeps dying from those stupid things

[obsessive]: Never

[could you live without the computer]: Dur. Of course.

[how many peeps are on your buddylist]: four. lol. I don't IM many people.

[what's your favorite food]: Beef lomein and kimchee

[fruit]: mango, honeydew melon, cantaloupe

[drink alcohol]: I do sometimes yes

[Liike watching sunrises or sunset]: Yes. I wish I could see it with someone soon

[what hurts the most]: My foot

[trust others way too easily]: No. I distrust people when they deserve my distrust.

number..

[of times i have had my heart broken]: None

[Hearts u have broken]:IDK... two maybe??

[of continents I have lived in]: One.

[of drugs taken illegally]: Eww. Those are stupid and ugly

[of tight friends]: Um... uh... *counts* uh. I don't like to count. Too much.

[of cds that i own]: A lot.

[of scars on my body]: One on hand from glass. Others... maybe five?

[of things in my past that I regret]: Why would I want to?

pick one..

[marry perfect friend or perfect lover]: Friend

[cats or dogs]: cats :D

[1 or 2 pillows]: 500 and a cute one that looks like a rabbit or a small animal

[with or without ice cubes]: Ice cubes? No... icecubes are troublesome

[top or bottom]: Um... it depends.

[winter / spring / summer / fall]: Spring is the best, summer is nice too. The cold seasons are not so nice

[night or day]: both!

[gloves or mittens]: Gloves. Mittens are confining.

[dressed or undressed]: Slightly dressed

[bunk or water bed]: Bunk. I used to have bunks a while back

[mtv or vh1]: MTV made. It's not on anymore. :(

[ocean or pool]: The ocean is scary. There are all sorts of things that can kill you and it's so deep... there can be anything down there. I like pools

[showers or baths]: shower`

[love or lust]: Lust ^ ^

[silver or gold]: gold

[diamonds or pearls]: diamonds. I think pearls are tacky

if you could..

[move anywhere]: I would move around a lot and hardly settle down

[meet one famous person]: I don't care about famous people much, they're normal people after all

[live with one person the rest of your life]: I could not do that at the moment. Only if they would travel with me and let me alone a lot

[name one thing you love]: baby pandas

[name thing that embarrasses you:]: I keep coming across as spaces even if I am not

lastly

[do you like school]:I focus more on social than acedemic things at school
therefore i like it

[do you like to talk on the telephone]: I don't like it.

[do you like to dance]: I can not. I will dance alone though. :)
If it is choreographed then I can well.

[do you sing in the shower]: Yes. I make up songs on the spurr of the moment sometimes in other languages. They don't always make sense.

[do you think cheerleading is a sport]: Yes. I did it, and it is hard. I got hurt a bit.

[what's on your ceiling]: cracks

[what's the hardest thing about growing up]: everyone changing

LMFAO

Mon, 14 May 2007 03:29:13 GMT

YOU'RE A DIRTY WHORE

Guys want to fuck you up the ass and
smear crap
ALL OVER YOUR FACE.
and you love that!

How Do Men See You?

Dear Hanna

Thu, 10 May 2007 02:59:03 GMT

Dear Hanna,
As I become more and more obsessed with the phenomenon known as Gothic Lolita, I more and more want to become part of it. The victorion tone of the whole lifestyle is so impressive and completely beautiful. Plus the idea of tea parties in the park gives me a nosebleed (out of nerdiness). Being Gosurori is one of my aspirations. :) Look at this link; it made me so happy to read because it sounds so fun... and kind of... proper.

Oh. And this pic made me feel like I can pull off the style.

It made me feel bad that I promptly began to laugh hysterically.

Much love,
Hannah.

Sun, 06 May 2007 13:57:38 GMT

CAKE LYRICS

"Pentagram"

Your pentagram is down below our floor.
Your naked body shimmers in the night.
Dancing and chanting in a sacrificial rite.
Your feet are dry with the ashes from dead babies,
Who have passed the test just like all the rest,
But never really understood the reasons why
They took it in the first place.
Ah, in the first place.

Your feasty eyes won't make me fall apart.
Your turquoise and silver won't weaken this old heart.
Yeah, dancing and chanting in a sacrificial rite.
I fell to the ground on a windy, windy night.
Well I have passed the test just like all the rest,
But never really understood the reasons why
I took it in the first place.
Ah, in the first place.

Well I have passed the test just like all the rest,
But never really understood the reasons why
I took it in the first place.

[ OK. Cake is very creative, but I wouldn't sit next to them on the train.]
Ah, in the first place.

Sat, 05 May 2007 20:05:52 GMT

What Hannah Means

H is for Honey

A is for Almond

N is for Nookie

N is for Num Nums

A is for Almond

H is for Hottie

What's Your Pet Name?

You Should Get A Butterfly Tattoo

Sweet and sassy
For you, tattoos are a thing of beauty - not toughness

What Tattoo Should You Get?

Hello Everyone; my loves.

Sat, 05 May 2007 03:20:46 GMT

I'm happy! My mom bought be an ipod nano today and then me, Lucas, Tal and her went to Unos. And we had chocolate WOW. :D And this magician at our table bent a fork and tricked my mom. :D He's like:

Magic Man: Is this your card?
Mom: No. It isn't?
Magic Man: Are you kidding?
Mom: No. I'm not kidding! (in a smuggish tone)
Magic Man: Well I am! *reveals right card this time*

He was a cool guy. I want to know how he bent the fork so quickly just by rubbing it for a little while. :0

Tomorrow has very exciting prospects as well. It will be the last day of being fifteen, and I'll prolly get to see Shanti tomorrow! (yes Shanti, I do love you very much).

Even Tennis way entertaining, aside from the fact of the gigantic welts on my left hand. I feel like a malfigured gargoyle or something; gargoyles are adorable though. Agreed? I mean, they're supposed to be scary so that they can scare away evil spirits from temples, but if (ifcoughif) I was an evil spirit I would hug them madly. I guess I just like hugging things.

Personal boundaries though:
-No touchie hair. :)
That's about it though... since I'm slutty and all that.

"Never have I ever been raped by a fourteen year old girl"
>>; * "jokingly" puts down a finger *
Everyone laughs.
Me: >>; He...hehe...

Before I go, would someone be so kind as to tell me what exactly we will be doing tomorrow. Also, who is coming and at what time everyone is meeting up? And where?

I really miss all of you, and I hope that we have a fun time tomorrow. After all, every day with good friends should be fun no matter what; you should be able to have only fond memories that you can keep in your heart forever. :]

Ok. Enough sentimentality for one night, but I've been thinking about more happy things lately. Spring always does this to me, so don't be alarmed. <3

Mata ashita~ ne.

I'M UGLY AND I'M PROUD!! >:D

Thu, 03 May 2007 00:00:10 GMT

I'm so tired and out of it. But I'm really happy because I'm allowing myself to eat more because I'm going to do a fast during summer anyway. Wait... I mean a cleanse. Feel free to do it with meh, because my mom's really into them and it makes her look great. lol. I don't know why I'm so exhausted. Don't you ever wish that life could just stop for a day? I think I'll get into bed with some miso soup and/or Ramen and read Fruits Basket and Fugushigi yugi. And perhaps do my homework and write in my real journal about how tired I am. xD. Or maybe I'll just...
sleep.

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 21:51:06 GMT

Gaby, can you bring my phone charger to school tomorrow so I can charge my phone? ~ thankies

Hannah's interesting cough post.

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 18:22:28 GMT

I've recently become somewhat in love with Gothic Lolita. 0_0;;.

But come on. You gotta admit that it's the awesomest way to dress you ever did see. Right?? If I ever go to Japan I'm going to spend all my money on Lolita magazines, dresses, blouses, skirts and such; take pictures of Lolita-dressers in Harajiku. Oh, and buy the 'lolita bible' that tells you everything about it.

It's so strange right? I'm even trying to turn my gaia avatar (myodesopsia) into a Gothic Lolita.

And keep thinking when I see people, "would they look better in sweet Lolita or elegant Lolita when I see them. Don't worry, it's not as bad as it sounds.

I just kinda like the adorableness of it.

And I want to be a clothing designer.

So I can create a fashion that is

or becomes a fashion that is

Highly adorable and loved

by everyone... oh, and

that boy bands can

wear it too

.......

AND LOOK EXTRA ADORABLE.

owned.

Wouldn't that be so awesome to be a clothing designer though? And work with...
work with... male models. >_< DRESSED IN SHORTSHORTS.

...

But Jamie, buy plenty of clothes in Japan so I can look at them and see their awesomeness. And their misspelling awesomness as well. Because everyone knows that it's the best part ya? Ooh. Like frilly things with ribbons and corsets. Corsets are very elegant and beautiful.

They remind me of Lulu from Final Fantasy X who by the way is the wallpaper of my computer. She's sooo cool; so is Ame from xxxholic who has an awesome parasol.

Just a thought, but I love the word parasol.

Para

Sol

For the sun.

So it reminds you never to bring your cute frilly parasol into the rain. But Ame does bring hers in the rain. So it would be called... paralloviendo? >_< OMG THAT'S NOT RIGHT. I'M SO STUPID.

http://www.designchronicle.com/memento/images/xxxHOLiC/holic0701.jpg Ame

http://www.ffcompendium.com/art/10-lulu-a.jpg Lulu

Now for the next edition of Guru Hannah. xD

Life is very short. Make the most of it by finding the things you love and pursuing them. Don't be stalled by cost or thinking that you aren't good enough, smart enough pretty enough, or anything like that. If you only live once, than why don't you try all the things you want to try no matter what? Nobody else will live your life for you, you have to decide what you want to do; you can do anything you desire. You might desire money, fame, a nice boy or girlfriend, because that's what everyone else wants. But what do you want that money to buy? What do you want to be famous for, and what do you want from the lover? Instead, focus on things that make you really smile, things that you know how you'll react to. Don't pray for things you might not want later, instead, pray that you will find your true calling; pray that you will want what you recieve. Once you find what your path is in life, everything else will come in time; the money fame and the the boyfriend or girlfriend. So look at things you like, experience everything you can and live life as though you are the controller of your own universe. And you are.

Nobody can really know what the universe is, what comes after death and what people really are like.

Therefore, what can be strange? Who can actually be called weird or weirdacting. We could be anywhere; it's only conditioning from the time of childhood telling people how to act and what life is. And that is because nobody knows how to answer questions on the grand scale.

Why not live and let live?

And if nobody know what's going to happen then why dwell on it? Start living right in this moment. Make a promise to yourself that starting RIGHT NOW you will live the life you always dreamed of. Your life starts NOW. You hereby have permission to be whatever you want to be, and dream whatever you want to dream.

KYA!

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 01:25:44 GMT

Ok so remember those Japanese children's books from a whiiiiiile back that my mom took out for me? Got them back to the library today. They were late. WAAAAAAAY late. And the fine was...
omg...
54 dollars.
And I could just imagine the person putting my mom on customers_suck, but she wasn't that bad to them. She was actually pretty reasonable. Damn. What am I talking about?

Aaaaanyway, my mom should really get that catbite on her finger checked out. It's kind of swolen and gross and it still hurts her lots. So eww. I had to give my cat her medicine today so I wrapped her in a towel so she couldn't move and Tal gave it to her.
SHE'S SO SCARY. She's a little tiny cat but she's the scariest fucking thing ever.
my mommy had to get a tetnis shot...

You know what I miss? Roleplaying. I kind of love roleplaying.

I'm watching a British comedy. :D

Rant #2

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 00:32:50 GMT

Did loveless make me emo?

But I'm not emo, because people who dwell on their problems and blame society for everything are delusional morons. They can't stand to face their own responsibility and they convince themselves responsibility is unecessary and evil. That society created it to depress them.

It's useless to do that,because people can choose how they feel at any given moment even when provoked. Even if someone slaps you, there is no reason that you should slap them back. People are a solitary mind and a single person who no-one else can truly know, and that is why we should not be affected by the people around us. Whether it's a good feeling or a bad feeling, it's best that it does not come from an outside source. Otherwise, how do you know when that person will abandon you or stop doing nice things? You need to find what makes you happy and learn to be happy all alone.

Selfhatred is also useless, and the human body is such a precious thing to waste. Cutters want to feel more alive, so they draw their own blood. Why not find something that makes you truly feel alive? Why let your emotions take over so much that you need to feel them physically hurt to subdue them? Everyone has their crosses to bear, and person must carry them with a smiling face. There are many people with many different problems, some of which are more severe than others. Someone can lose everything. Their family, house, money, they could be starving and living in the street but they can still be happy because they have themselves. They see all the wonderful things in life and they know that no matter what happens, even if they die the next day, that everything is worth it. Even though people say that they've lost everything, it can't really be true.

I beleive that we are all placed on this earth not to suceed or make a lot of money, but to be truly happy. It's hard for some people to find it because of different world conditions and different families and cultures, but it's always there.

And I'm not saying that it's wrong to live with people and to be happy with them. You can only frankly be happy and love others, though, when you frankly love yourself.

<3

Sorry for acting strange my last couple of posts. I don't do much ranting or anything in any other case so this is a little strange. I hope I haven't offended anyone by writing this like I did last time, but just no it's not intentional. I'm not thinking about anyone in particular as I write this, only people in general. I think I'll try writing for the first time in a while. And have you notices, Hanna? I'm showing to be as cynical as you. In time my secretly cynical mind will be revealed to possibly rival your own.

And with that, goodnight.

Blegh

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 02:30:09 GMT

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. With who?
I only walk in the woods alone. 's habit...

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?
Cougar

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
It follows me on my right side. :D

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe it.
It's sky blue. Green Moulding. Big rose garden. 1 bed 2 bath.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
Yes. A cute fence with vines growing on it. Maybe morning glory.

6. You enter the house. You walk in to the dining room and see the dining room table. What do you see on AND around it?
There's a dark purple tablecloth with persian patterns and candles. There's ebony chairs around it.

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
A little dixie cup.

8. What do you do with the cup?
Throw it away.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. What kind of body of water is it?
A wide river.

10. How will you cross the water?
Walk accross a huge thing of logs or a bridge.

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important person in your life.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.

7. The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.

8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.

10. How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance of your sex life.

Yay

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 00:57:03 GMT

Gaby. You're really doing a great job of trying to be nicer. I'm happy for you.
You really helped me get un-stressed after my crappy day at work in which I wanted to hit Ryan over the head with my painting. I really do want to get rid of it somehow. I think I'm beginning to hate it with a passion. :P

Angry Rant

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 20:44:32 GMT

I feel like becoming the perfect child that I used to be. Somewhere along my life I started becoming more halfassed about everything and I really want to change. Get good grades. Be more focused on priorities. Be the neatfreak I am sometimes all the time. Stop fading into the background. I used to be the smart one who everyone praised and then I just got bored and stressed and I lost my way. I know that I can do better. I just need some motivation.

I hate when people tell me to do things, like do my homework or to follow them somewhere or to go across the room to get them something. I take it up to a point and then I just don't listen to what they say anymore. I don't think they're worthy of having a friendship with anyone. It's really stupid to follow people anyway. And it's kind of bitchy to tell people what to do and then feel good about yourself like you've accomplished something from it. Like you're superior to them or something. I hate self-centered egotists who think that I hang on their every word and bow down to them to the point that I do whatever they say. No. I just humor people. I humor them until I decide that what they're doing it hurting me way too much and then I start snapping at them at random times. So I've come to the conclusion that you can't tell someone to do something without them losing a little faith in you. You can't tell them "go to class," or "give me a dollar," or "come here," without them thinking a little less of you. You have to understand that all people are equal and that there is no superior person who knows how to manipulate. Others understand when they are being manipulated and they just do their best to hide it so they won't trouble other people. I think that if everyone just said "please" a little more or made their motives clear, everyone would be a little happier.

Also, people should listen when someone is talking. It's really rude to half-listen or just space out completely. Everyone is allowed a few times when they're just really out of it or when they just don't feel like listening. But some people just space out and only think that what they is important so the words of others don't have to be heard in detail. These people are just as bad as the ones who try to manipulate others because they are just as self-centered and egotistical. It's easy to know when you're being half-acknowleged and it feels really horrible, plus, it destroys the whole definition of speech and conversation.

A conversation is this:

A says something to B
B processes what A says
B replies to A
A processes what B says.

Instead it's something like
A says something to B
B processes what A says
B prepares to reply to A
A keeps saying shit
B replies to A
A ignores B or says 'what?'

This is not what speech is all about. It's not supposed to all be ranting, because sometimes there really is something to say that has to be taken seriously.
Thus ends my angry rant.
(Maybe)

So. Things I should work on.
1)Get better grades
-Do homework right away
-Study for tests
-Don't miss any school
2)Be a cleaner person
-vaccum more often
-if I can't clean my dad's whole house, at least keep the kitchen, bathroom, my room and the small book room clean.
3)Be more focused
-make a list of short-term and long-term goals
-accomplish the short-term goals (it keep you focused to do this. Trust meh)
-To-do lists
-focus on one thing at a time instead of doing everything at once and ending up dizzy
4)Be healthier
-Eat more salad instead of cake. (lol)
-Fitness center and the Y at least twice a week
-run with Hanna and Liyang without my huge coat that strangled me
-stop drinking soda and stuff like that
5)Skills I want to learn
-cooking
-housekeeping
-painting (and drawing in general)
-A bunch of other shit

Angry rant... lol. I'm pissed aint I?
It's not even PMS either.
I think that I'm seriously pissed off and I don't even know why I chose these topics to be pissed off about. owel. Bye. <33

StufF...

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 21:57:58 GMT

1. Where is your cell phone? coat pocket
2. Describe your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife/lover? Somewhere
3. Your hair? straight and brunette
4. Your mother? Means well, but she won't admit that her ego is HUGE.
5. Your father? You know what I think about him...
6. Your favourite item? My cell
7. Your dream last night? I think Jessy and Ben were in it.
8. Your favourite drink? Grape boba
9. Your dream car? would be handpainted
10. The room you are in? messy
11. Your ex? bi
12. Your fear? Deception.
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? Nippon (nihon (Japan))
14. Who did you hang out with last night? my mom
15. What you're not? naive
19. The last thing you did? took a bite of crappy white rice.
20. What are you wearing? one green earing, one red one.
21. Your favourite book? The sight
22. The last thing you ate? Crappy frozen white rice.
23. Your life? Great
24. Your mood? Apathetic
25. Your friends? Beautiful
26. What are you thinking about right now? This crappy white rice.
7. Your car? No cat
28. What are you doing at the moment? Getting crappy white rice out of my teeth
29. Your summer? Kind of boring
30. Your relationship status? single
31. What is on your tv? spongebob
32. When is the last time you laughed? After the gangsters...
33. Last time you cried? couple days ago.
34. School? Struggling through it, but sucking it up.

So everyone knows that Hannah likes her alone time. Sometimes I walk home all the way from riverside just so I can have some Hannah-moments. During this time only I am aloud to start conversations, which I usually don't. People can look or wave at me and I won't care, but I really get pissed off if they try to interact with me.

Today I'm walking by Ryo's place and then I see the two adorable Asian twins that I see around there sometimes. It was a good thing for me, I got happy when I saw them and I'm like "I gotta get some napkins for my nosebleed." xD jk...

Then I get a copy of the dig... I'm walking... then I see three big gangsters walking down the sidewalk in my direction. Now I'm not racist or anything, but people following this gangster trend (lol trend) usually end up interacting with me in some way. So I start to read DIG. But then I'm like "why the fuck am I reading dig?" because I don't get how white bitches just try to pretend to be smooth by ignoring guys completely and reading dig. Wait... I'm white... but I'm not a bitch right? ... anyway I tuck it under my arm again.

Me: (If I get so much as a 'sup I will flip out)
*walking closer*
Me: (>:((( should I make a weird face to scare them off??)
*closer*
Me: (fuck that.) *smiles at them sweetly out of habit* xDDDD
Guy: Hey miss, my friend right here thinks you're very beautiful.
Me: *dark clouds forming*
other guy: :)
Me: *wave and starts walking*
Three guys: *still standing there*
Guy: Do you have a boyfriend?
Me: (AS;KFJNAEWFKHNSZKE;JFH!@!=j esfhass!!!) Yeah. :) LOL
other guy: man...
Me: *waves curtly and walks away*

Then I start cracking up so much I could'nt breathe. :D